After my appointment on Monday (March 7th) I couldn't wait to get this over with. I was so tired of crying and being scared of the outcome (miscarriage). I prayed and prayed that the bleeding would start so I could finally put this horrible chapter behind me. On Thursday, March 10th, my prayers were answered, first I started to spot, then by nightfall I began to bleed heavily. On Friday, while my hubby was at work I started experiencing some pretty intense cramping/contraction pains. That afternoon I went to the restroom to pee....and splash. Of course, I was like "what the heck was that"... I had convinced myself at that time I had passed the placenta and I'm sure the fetal tissue. I thought things would lighten up after that but that wasn't the case. Fast forward 2 days and here we are today, Sunday March 13th. I was playing outside with Hailey and once again had some bad cramping, ran to the restroom and something half the size of Friday's experience came out. What the heck, two?? These weren't the normal "clots" people talk about, they were like cyclinders ... like the Hot Tamale candies, but much bigger (probably triple that size). Could it be possible there were twins? Maybe I am crazy, but I can honestly say, I have NEVER seen anything like it in my life. Apparently, today's adventure was probably why this bleeding hasn't lightened up at all since Friday. I am hoping that was the end of the passages ... and we can now start a new chapter in our lives. Nothing has eased up yet, but I will remain positive by tomorrow things will be better. Speaking of tomorrow, I have an appointment at 11:45am to see my fertility doctor. She informed me that they will most likely do an ultrasound and blood work. I am praying my HCG levels are at ZERO now. Ugh. Well, that's all for now. Sorry for the graphic TMI post.
Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for giving me the strength to deal with lifes obstacles. I would have never thought I would be able to do it. Please Lord, help me through next weeks trying times and give me the confidence I so ever need to move forward. Thank you Lord, in your name I pray, Amen.
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