Today I went to the fertility clinic ... all by myself (oh wait, I lied, I had Hailey in tow). I decided to take the stairs once we arrived at the Scottsdale location. By the time I made it to the top of the stairs, I realized the elevator probably would have been a better idea. Note to self: always take elevator with a squirmy 2 years old in tow. I walked into the clinic with knots in my stomach but I managed to fake everyone out. The nurse called my name and we headed back to the room "get undressed below the waste". Hmmmm ok, sounds like an easy request. It would have been if I had been alone, instead I was running around the room half naked trying to get Hailey. I finally grasped her and draped her across my chest as the doctor walked in. Then onto the ultrasound ... up the legs went still holding Hailey on my chest. I'm awesome just so you know. She peeked at my uterus .. she says "Oh nice thinned out Uterus". Ok sweet, that's good. Then she says "uh, well you got a nice cyst on your right Ovary". Hmmm well isn't that just peachy! I asked her "so, could that possibly be the follicle from last month" because it totally looked the same size and exact spot. Much to my surprise she answered "Yes, that could be last months follicle". GREAT! What that means is ... ALL those drugs, appointments, shots and money and that silly little sucker never even dropped. At this point I am so sick to my stomach, but once again I suck it up. I can't be upset in front of Hailey, half naked, legs in the air. She then checks my left side and every looks great there. So onto the meeting room we walk after I get dressed and "cleaned up". I start my meds tonight (pills), then on the 10th, 12th, 14th, I will administer my injections.....February 14th (Valentines Day) I will go for my HSG and Follicular scan. The HSG will make sure I have no blockages and the follicular scan will see how many eggs I harvested. After that date the doctor will decide how many more injections and scans I will need. I am guessing my IUI will be anywhere between the dates of the 18th-22nd. I'd be lying if I told you I wasn't scared (hence the title). I signed a form today that said I was okay with multiples...in reality I'm not sure how okay I really am. I need to pray for comfort.
That wraps up today in a nut shell -- I picked up all my meds and went home. Today was a very expensive day --- but someday it will just be a distant memory.
Today prayer:
Dear Heavenly Father grant me the strength to deal with lifes obstacles, to not feel jealous of the people around me who carry what I so want for myself. Please father help me deal with the ups and downs of life's journey. Father, please also bless my family and friends who have supported me so much! In God's name I pray, Amen.
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