Preparing ...

Ok, so I had my first follicle scan on Tuesday 6/7/11 which was CD10 ... the doctor said my uterus lining was still thin at only 5mm and I had 3 follicles (all 12mm), two on the right ovary, one on the left ovary. I left feeling optimistic even though I was a bit scared about the uterus lining being so thin but I figured it had plenty of time to plump up! Yet, still a little concerned considering last cycle on CD10 my largest follicle was 18mm (which is a HUGE difference). Anyhow, the doctor set me up for a followup ultrasound on CD12 or Thursday 6/9/11. Boy was I not prepared for that day......

6/9/11
After driving 1 hour in the car with my 2 year old in tow we arrived at the fertility clinic. My appt was at 11:45am and I arrived at 11:40am! After waiting about 5 minutes in the waiting area, they called me back to a room. I undressed to just a shirt and bra remaining. After about 20 minutes of waiting, my kiddo became restless and I was chasing her around half naked. After another 20 minutes, I was pretty ticked that no-one came to my room yet. I got dressed and actually searched for a person ... but there were none to be found. I was on FIRE at this point. Once again, I undressed and waited...ANOTHER 20 minutes....yes folks I was in there for 1 hour and not even a courtesy "we will be with you soon". Grrrr.

Finally, the doctor knocks on the door and says "Are you ready". I wanted to say "Are you kidding me?!" But, I simply said "uh ya".

Anyhow, she checks my uterus lining ...she said "it looks GREAT! It's at 8mm" I was so pleased and excited!!!! Then off to the right ovary to check those 2 follicles. She scanned over to it and I was floored. I didn't see anything big enough. Where did my 2 follicles go??? She continued to measure all these small little ones and said "Nope nothing on the right". SAY WHAT?!?!?! I wanted to just break down and cry but I stayed strong. Then she scanned my left ovary (the one that is bad cause it always produces bad poor quality follicles).  She said "Well, there is your lead follicle, it measures 17.4mm".

After days of injecting, and countless pills ... I have ONE FOLLICLE??!?!?! That's what a normal person would have ... 1 measley follicle. She scheduled my IUI for Monday 6/13/11. I left the office and sat in my car and cried .... and cried....and cried.

For those people who are thinking ... "But Mandy, It only takes one". Let me clear the muddy water ....
statistically speaking ... the success rate of IUI with 1 follicle is 6% ... that's right 6 out of 100 people get pregnant. This is a HUGE blow. With a success rate of 6% and $1000's of spent ... it seems hopeless. My body is failing me...what's next? I'm so scared my follicle reserve is depleted and I won't be able to have any more babies.

All those fears of twins, triplets and quads have disappeared. I would gladly take them all now! I may not even get one. My heart is crushed.

Needless to say, after a long chat with the hubby. We have decided to continue with the IUI on Monday. I have been OPK'ing since Thursday making sure I don't ovulate before my IUI. We have also DTD with Preseed to ensure the most "men" get up there.

The biggest chance I have of getting pregnant this month would be from the help of God. I have and will be doing LOTS of praying. This ONE solo egg deserves to become a baby who will be loved SO much! Please God, hear me, I promise to love this baby so much if you choose to give her/him to me.

I will try to update on Monday.